It's been a hectic this week...with so many works need to be done at the same time...when the deadline is on the same day, I have to fight nails and tooth just to meet the deadline...by hook or by crook he said I have to finish it...no matter how your body suffered, with lack of rest and unproper meals, I have to bear...in the end, I made it...how relieved I was when I clicked on the send button...😚😰
So thats it...enough with my work, let us continue with the main entry, the main characters and the main story...so today is my Episode 6
Today, he really came for the meeting...ayu wasn't come..he came with his colleague...at first, I was nervous..but when I saw him looked so smart in his blue shirt (same colour with my tudung surprisingly) with his neat combed hair...I was amazed...in my heart, I'd say 'handsome nye dia'.
What make me blushed was when he sat next to me in the meeting...I didn't look at him cause I was so nervous...and that moment, how I wished I am pretty and younger...👧
The meeting that supposed to be ended in the afternoon around 12 was continued untill evening...I was happy actually because the time we were together was longer than I thought...despite of felt bored and burden, I felt delighted...but he didn't like it..he just wanted to go back ASAP...for me the longer he was here the happier I felt...we lunch together, discussed together and I was happy to talk with him...what made me surprised was when we discussed about a few lot with issue there was a place where unforgetable moment happened as he was the one saving my flown away plan in the rain...when the chairman talked about that lot, he immediately whispered to me...is that the place while we were checking the lot, a big tractor appeared...I just smiled and nodded to him...in my heart, I said oh my god, he still remember that moment...where after the big tractor appeared, while I was trying to run away from the tractor, my plan was flown away and he was the one who picked up and handed me that plan...once again I felt so happy...
After the meeting, I just wanted to sent him off...saying goodbye..but I was being held by en. Faredzul, MADA officer...he kept talking with me and abg kerul...talked about the work and all his ex superior who turned out to be my superior which were dato' Loh and Mr. Chiang...I thought that he would went back already cause the talking took about 15 minutes...but when I stepped out from JPS office, I took a glanced toward the parking lot just in front of the office, I could see his white car was still there...I was sooo happy...😍😘😊
He was in the driver seat, the door was wide open...his friend was standing outside of the car smoking...i can see him trying to switched on the engine but it didn't worked...in my heart once again I whispered...is this what people call destiny...😍😍 I walked slowly to my car that I parked just next to his car and put my bag inside..then I went to his car tried to check what happened...he was trying to switched on the engine..the way he trying to insert the key into the key panel, trying to rotate the key again and again was so cool...I was like...oh my god, he looked awesome, stylish and very manly...I had to calm down cause I didn't want anybody to see my blushing face...I was smilling broadly inside my heart...
After a few unsuccessful attempt to switched on the car, abg kerul offered him to find any close by mechanic, so we left them and I drove my car to help them find a mechanic...but half way out, he called and told abg kerul that the car can be started...so I just left and still didn't had the opportunity to say goodbye...if this is not the end, I would love to see him again...I really love that...all the way back to office, I was smilling, but I had to controlled not to be seen by abg kerul...
In the office, I felt like I want to dance...i
danced a bit fyi 😆😆 cause I was so happy...it had been a long time I didn't felt this kind of feeling...having this feeling again was so good even tho it was only a one sided feeling...😍😘😍
And that night, around 9...I made a bold attempt to text him to ask about his car...I was doubted at first whether to text him or not...my heart was beating so hard when I tried to touch the sent button...and I thought o myself, if it wasn't now, I might not having any opportunity in the future...so I touched the sent button and I immediately threw my phone away cause I was ashame...a few minutes later, he replied...I was so happy...we texting to each other about 2 hours...a few things we had chatted and it was a good chat...😁😁 I know this might be the first and the last time I can chat with him..after this, I really don't know what the reason to text him...😢😢 I dont want to be greedy keep wanted more but I really really hope that this is not the end...I knew I really had fall in love with this guy...he had all the criteria of my dream guy...if he is not the one...perhaps I can meet someone who exactly just like him...but I really hope that he is the one...hopefully 😆😆😆
People say, it is better to be rejected rather than not trying to do anything...I know exactly what I need to do if I'd be rejected...yeah, I might be sad for a moment but I used with it...the problem is, I really dont know what I should do if i'd be accepted...so what are u waiting for, tell him how you had been felt about him...confess to him..its seem so simple, but it is actually harder to share whats in my heart...i might create a big, strong wall between us if I confess..things won't be the same anymore...I am so scare with the consequent afterwards...destiny, right now I need your help...please play your role...I really need you to bring us back together again...I was so tired being dump a thousand time...
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